Epiphanies/Revelations

its real funny, we went to house bunny this arvo, and then went back to my house where we watched youtube videos for ages, then hopped in my car and went out to ANOTHER movie (burn after reading is a CRAP movie.) with aformentioned friend.
so there were like 9 of us at this movie, and after, we were all like "lets go to someones house and watch movies"
so we did.
but his car was at my house, so we had to go to my house first, so he could pick up his car and drive home, where i picked him up and we went and watched movies at rorys house.
and i just got home, cos it was fun. we watched Michael Ball DVDs and Priscilla Queen of the Desert
*le sigh*
i should go to bed
we're going to the library tomorrow haha
well actually its today now.

Aw cute.
did you have funn?

lots of fun
hes so funny, and smart, and we sung along the whole Way through everything
=]
he is just WONDERFUL

=] aw thats so sweet.
MAKE A MOVE!

i couldnt do that to him...
hes so sweet and innocent.

i guess we'll have to see how it all goes tomorrow at the library haha

yeah i hope it all goes well for you!

thankyou lovey

i told him when he comes back from england im taking him to a concert, cos hes never ever been to a concert before xD

xD cuteness.

I'm gonna have to love you and leave you now. I'm of to slumberland.

NIGHT NIGHT!

ooh, the library...

up against the bookshelves, how kinky!

Haha rude Emily!

...you know you were thinking it!

Aw you caught me!

come on, give me a LITTLE credit

my parents already think we're going out

and my friends mum

hmph

sam only hangs out with me when he has something to benefit from my presence. my money, my car, my petrol, just not me.
wow.

that must really suck.

why do you think that?

yesterday lunch time he ignored me completely. because i had NOTHING which would benefit him.

hes so hard to read. like today in drama, i walked in and he ran up and gave me a hug which was nice.

so i have turned uber pathetic and made him cupcakes

...that's really weird. I honestly dunno what's up with him.

cupcakes are always awesome though

like, yesterday he was hugging everyone and play fighting everyone and everything
except me
so i was like "well im off then..."
and he was like "k!"

and i went to the bathrooms ans cried a bit in self pity

aww,

if he won't be nice to you, then I take back everything nice I ever said about him!

we'll see. hes always nice when he wants something from me.
its so so so so annoying, because HE KNOWS I WOULD DO ANYTHING TO MAKE HIM HAPPY

ug, he's not worth it.

now I don't like him anymore.

mm... i still do.
which worrys me

it means im in too deep.
its bad.

you gotta get out sweetheart.

I know I don't fully know the situation, but, based on an outside view, I'm gonna say that it isn't a good idea to stay this Way

i know. i really do have to get out...
but i bet you understand how hard it is to let go of your first ever love?

I don't know if I've ever been in love. It felt like it, but what do I know of beautiful things such as love?

I know how it feels to want to fight to stay, to hold on to a thread of hope that's much too thin. Pretty soon darling, that thread is gonna snap, and you're gonna get hurt worse than if you just cut it.