what I would do for you
what I do do for you
and you're never gonna find out
'cause I doubt you'll be as proud as me
that I'm committing slow suicide, slow suicide
I guess it's worth it
by the time I've died
I'll be good enough for you
kinda sad really, that I want this
that I'd do this for your kiss
what a fuck-up I am, that I give a damn
what the mirror says
I'm gonna show you how good I can be
you'll see, slow suicide
saying goodbye in every silent scream
every cry for help that I say in my head
too ashamed to admit it outloud
I'll end up dead pretty soon if I don't
tell someone, get help with this, I don't
wanna be a waste of life, waste of time
so this is the only smoke signal I'm sending
so it's up to you, you decide
am I worth it?
will the hospital accommodate me?
and realize what I need (love)?
slow suicide is the deadliest Way to live,
yet the worst Way to die
no escape, can't stop once you've started
so go ahead, put your heart into this
if only I could just get you as I am
but I never will, so I'm asking myself
are you worth it? are you worth this
heartache, headache, screams that I make?
do I love you that much?
are you worth the slow suicide you're causing?
look where love got me, killing myself so slowly,
don't even realize it's wrong until I'm seeing
the ceiling and wondering why I can't just
be normal
no one knows I've lied, no one knows how hard
it is to hide my slow suicide
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yes/no?
Have any idea what it's about?