The Relationship Thread

jesus loves you.

always remember that.

its funny

watching the Les Mis DVD i just wanted to cry, but i couldnt. Not infront of him anyways. It was only during his song i wanted to cry too. hes just so fabulous, and he doesnt realise HOW FABULOUS HE IS. He is like mikey, he doesnt realise how special or talented he is. He looked so beautiful up on that stage, and it just brought tears to my eyes... you will all understand when I upload it to youtube. well maybe you will... im just in too deep that I cant actually find any faults in him. its terrible, because i have so many faults and im so imperfect, but he seems so perfect...
but he doesnt care about me. He hugged everyone as he left, but not me.
he ignores me.

and i love him. but i hate him for doing this to me. i just want to be his special someone. but no. Im just me, and im the one he calls only when he needs my money.
oh and did i mention, he is having a les mis get together on saturday, and im not invited.
oh wait, he said he was coming to tauranga with me for the weekend...
i guess he isnt. he has something more important planned.

night night im crying myself to sleep.

Oh sweetheart, he's such an ass.

Remember what I said, and that he's not worth your love. You deserve someone that will give you as much love as you give them.

today for drama, it wass our last class so we went to the mall and went out for coffee as a group. there were like 10 of us. and he pretty much ignored me until he shoved his straw and his drink into my mouth insisting i try it...

and then i walked back to school by myself, and he followed, and he was like "wats wrong? dont be antisocial, stop texting"
and i turned around and i was like "im not texting." then i kept walking.

and i burst into tears, and he was like "omg wats wrong?"
and i was like "nothing. im fine."
and hes like "i would beleive that. except for all the tears..."

i dont know why hes such a jerk, but i still love him for it.

I really can't understand why you still love him even though he treats you so bad.

But still,

its hard to explain. i never beleived in it, but honestly, it was love at first sight. when i saw him i was just like "omg. you... you dazzle me..."
and now i cant let it go, because no matter how much of a dick he is to me, I still think he is the sweetest guy alive.

but today was the last straw, i broke down in tears cos its technically the last day of school, and he just rolled his eyes and stormed away. And then he was like "im going to simones.. wana come?" so i went with him, and then he just left me there.
and he didnt speak a single other word to me the whole day.

2 weeks ago i thought there was something there. and so did everyone else. why has he suddenly turned on me? i havent done anything wrong. so my friend texted him and was all like "hey are you ok? i think this week you have upset some people..." and he was like "who? im just real tired, I hope theyre ok, Im just stressed. i dont mean it, im just exhausted at the moment"
so tomorrow when i pick him up to go to the Blue in Green concert, im going to have a D&M and work out what is going on between us.
but until then, im going to cry myself to sleep a little more.

ily guys so much <3

Aw I want to give you a hug Brii!

Maybe he is just stressed and exhausted. I get like that to, and just don't feel like talking to anyone.
just talk to him and see how to works out.
So cheer up, It'll be fine!

< I make that exact face to my friends when they're upset and it all ways makes the smile... probably doesn't have the same effcet cyber-ly, BUT I TRIED!

em, i know you dont understand, and i cant explain it myself, so maybe this song will help in explaining?



im singing this at my end of year singing recital. and hes coming to watch. i dont know what to do. it might be beleivable if i start crying half Way through..

can you imagine that this could get even more shitty?

last night driving home i had a mental breakdown with my friend in the car and she was like "OMG HOLY SHIT" cos i was screaming and crying after i dropped him home and so we went back to my place and ate alot of pizza.

i think i finally understand em... hes a fucking asshole.
but yet, i still want him

oi buy a tin and smoke your pain away.

i want to get really drunk and drunken call him.

cos i will never regret that.
ever.

aw *hug* looking at my avatar will make things better
(it does for me)

Brii: I STILL LOVE YOU!

yay!!

i found out some dirt on him yesterday *rubs hands together*

oooh, SHARE!

*also rubs hands together*

ok so the other week him and 3 other friends of mine got really drunk together (thats a scandal in itself. hes head boy, and such a goody 2 shoes. does no wrong. doesnt drink. perfect angel.)
and he got quite drunk
and he took off all his clothes
and was running around in his underwear.

and apparently he does this whenever he gets drunk.

heehee, lol

so he's an asshole and a spaz?

well it appears so!
i laughed so hard!!!

pssch ive seen him in his underwear, so thats nothing new XD

it was funny at halloween too, he did a shot of raspberry vodka and then fought his best friend over a vodka and lemonade.
its a side of him i have never seen before.
but LOL

...he's still an ass. A funny ass, but an ass nonetheless.

i cant beleive you didnt ask about how i saw him in his underwear hahaha

and i agree, a funny ass, but when hes drunk he gets kind of... weird?
"FUCK OFF! no come here i love you really. but can you go away?"

...I was afraid to know.

So, he gets twice as bipolar when he's drunk? Wow, that's a new one.

LOL haha i shant tell you then

eugh i know right?

i dont drink cos once at easter mum and dad got me drunk on our yacht which was massively large and a long ass distance to fall off. and i was hanging off the side of our yacht rapping.

rapping. i shit you not.
the thing was, we had run out of water cos i insisted on having a 20 minute shower everytime i got out of the ocean from swimming. so we had no drinking water left. so mum and dad gave me a 2 litre bottle of apple cider and i skulled it. didnt realise it was alcoholic.

ohh Mikey, I'm guessing that didn't turn out well.

I think alcohol is stupid, and I've seen what it does to people. I don't intend on ever drinking any.

i only drink little bits, on special events like christmas and birthdays

and when me and my friends are having a picnic on the beach.
its kinda cool being kinda rich (i did not mean to sound snobby) because it means i have a taste for champagne, rather than vodka. and i would have to drink a shit load of champagne to get drunk.

meh, you don't sound snobby.

If I was rich, I'd act the same, I suppose.

I can just imagine you: "No dear, I'll have the red with my fish" in some aristocratic voice.