WAYT

awh sweetie i appreciate that!

it was so awkward yesterday, we had graduation assembly, and there were 13 awards for funny things like "cutest couple" given out, that the grad commitee organised. and then sam took the mic and was like "she laughed her Way into our hearts, and we all love her. so award for Brii for her fabulous laugh, and for being so fabulous and brave this year in her first and last year at st kents."
so i went up to the stage, and i went in for the hand shake, and he just hugged me so tight for so long
the crowd went "aww!"
AWKWARD

...sounds reeeally awkward.

I still don't like him.

i do. which sucks.

so last night after he snubbed me the whole night, me and leila went to mcdonalds and bitched. and she was all like "oh my god we all thought you were dating and you are currently going through a reeeeally bad break up"

FAIL.

Psh, like he is good enough to go out with The Brii.

hes like schizo it drives me up the wall

in other news, i have an incredible fake tan

...I'm pasty white.

Meh, schizos are Way cooler than him!

I'm kinda sleepy, even though it's only like 12:40. Imma head to bed I guess.

Goodnight my s'mores!

if it werent for fucking gerard Way giving me a fucking guilt trip i swear to god i would just kill myself now. fuck you gerard. now i cant do it because of you. i feel like i want to, but imagine all the negative press MCR would get? I couldnt put them through that, because i love them in a creepy voyueristic Way in which they dont actually know of my existence but I know everything about theirs.

sorry.

I feel the need to do this
aww Brii,
Dont feel like that hun! We all want you to be happy! It'll get better!
I think in some Way, kinda, Gerard would be proud that you listened to them and respected them so much and took their message to heart...

i'm sorry, I'm not the best with words.

so some guy on msn was just like:
to be honest your a fucking low-life cunt and your no fucking use to me so im gonna block and remove you cos your just a fucking hinderance jojo you fucking slut !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
and then:
your coked up to fuck aint you you stupid slag !!
and is still expecting me to talk to him normally

wow people are so pleasant.

wow, he needs to get LAID!

But Brii, I know how you feel. You need to stop caring about him! I know it seems hard, and it is, but it is important. You shouldn't waste anymore of your life trying to figure him out.

Remember I love you sweetheart.

at least someone does huh?

i cant just stop caring. cos hes like my dfirst love ya know?
and i was talking to my mate last night in the car and i was like "he treats me like shit, and still i love him"
and she was like "thats cos hes so charasmatic. he has the gift of the gab, and he can talk his Way into everyones hearts. oh and hes fucking cute. that too."
and i was like "well shit. thanks leila."

Brii, I know for a fact that everyone on this site loves you, as does your family.

That's a lot of people.

Second, your friend's right, he charmed his Way into your heart, and he;s using you for his own stupid purposes.

I've never really been in love. The closest was when I started to doubt my sexuality, and I thought I was in love with this girl I knew. This straight girl. I had to get out of that pointless thing, just like you do. It is jut going to end in pain if you don't.

i dont know how well you know Les Miserables, the musical, so ill give you a quick run down.
girl called Eponine. In love with Marius. Marius doesnt like her in any Way more than a friend, and uses her to contact a girl called Cosette who he fell in love with. And then, he send Eponine to Cosette with a letter, in the middle of the French Revolution. Eponine returns to Marius after delivering the letter, and is shot, and dies in Marius' arms. At this point Marius realises he loves her, and he says that, and she dies happy, and he kisses her.

i feel like I am eponine, and that this is wat it would take to make him notice me.
its tragic and sadistic and awful of me to even think of it that Way, but thats how i felt last night...

Sweetheart, that shit only happens in musicals and movies.

but, you wouldn't enjoy his love if you died right after he tells you! it would be a pointless death.

thats true.

maybe i should tell him im dying of an incurable disease

and then miraculously be cured.



wow ima bitch haha

that sounds like an elaborate plot m'dear.

he's not worth all that work

yea, you are so right.

pffft.
any other ideas?
just something which will make him feel guitly for a while?

...uh, um....well...

nope, nothing.

I'm reallly slow!

maybe i should just carry on like nothing is wrong.
and be all happy and smiley

we had a fight in the car yesterday, and he didnt speak to me for the rest of the day, silent treatment. so i think it would piss him off no end if i was to be all like "SAM! sweetie how are you?"

heehee, that would be funny.

im gona do it at the picnic

"can i get you a drink honey? oh no wait, not a good idea.. you're in public, awe dont want you getting arrested for public indecency."